She was my Omi and she couldn't really speak English but she gave me a lot of attention when I was little.

I remember Elizabeth Rinck my grandmother very vividly. How could I not, she was a powerhouse of a woman, she vibrated with this electrical energy all the time. She read like a fiend until 4 am every night when she came to visit us from Germany.. her light was always on. She was always doing something with her hands, making something. She was strong, whichis cool because most people think of grandmothers as you know, frail, hobbling, etc. She was not that type.

 
So yeah, I have been remembering her, feeling her a lot lately knowing full well that she is trying to passdown some pain to me that I don't necessarily want. But it's not mine. I do believe our ancestors try to pull this kind of recycled karma business off on us all the time- and it's not always a deep spiritual lesson. Sometimes it just sucks to inherit it, and I suppose you are kind of looking at a choice to heal it and heal them even if they're dead. I think I can work with that.

But why do I want passed down mistakes that other people have made that are somehow linked to me because I am linked energetically to them? I see the repetition in the form it takes now in a different time. Why does it often skip a generation, that's what I want to know. Is that in one of the hidden rule books I haven't read yet? Anyway, I have not thought of her for awhile so I thought I would dedicate a page to her here. I was thinking recently that personal sites like this are a lot like an altar. xo spiralgirl